I thought this year would be a good time to start a new segment called 'On my Mind.' I had a whole different topic prepared, but due to current circumstances, I will do a blog on friendship instead.
For those of you who don't believe in a Higher Power, please indulge this post of mine and accept me for who I am.
Friendship is defined as the personal relationship of two individuals. I say, that friendship goes deeper than that. Friendship is a God given blessing to us mortals on earth. Living day to day on our world is tough, and today's world is so stressful. Friendship gives us that taste of unconditional love that rules the Other Side and Heaven itself.
Friendship in its highest form is accepting that individual for who they are. Unfortunately, we are mortals, and our mortal minds bring in some pretty nasty emotions when it comes to love of any kind.
I have always said this earth is Kindergarten in the grand scheme of Heaven. Those of us on this planet, whether it is our first time or 100th time are here because we cannot graduate from Kindergarten. How embarrassing is that? But God knows and sees all things. God foresaw this and so He continually puts his older wiser spirits here to help us. We must all thank God for that blessing!
I have found a blog of pure hatred against me. Do not blame this individual. I do not. I have told her I would expect no less than her defense of a friend. This person has a right to her feelings and anger, and expressing them in her way.
However, I find it totally wrong to divulge publicly any information that in friendship was given to her privately, and I respectfully request she withdraw that statement.
Who's to blame here? There is no blame. Life happens. Changes occur. I was accused of having a new friend and dropping an old friend. This is incorrect. I do not let go of friends easily. I have already stated that I see friendship as a gift from God, and I would never throw that gift out casually. I tormented over this decision before I put it to action, and there are those friends of mine who know this.
Did I quit being friends with someone? Yes, I did. I tried in many ways to bring up my frustrations for certain actions. I finally couldn't take it anymore. If there are two things I continually strive for in my earthly state it is tolerance and patience, and I tell all of you now, I have not conquered them. And this is what happened in this situation. But we all have our faults, don't we?
When I couldn't take anymore of what was irritating me, I did shut the door on that friend. I will not go in to what was the cause. I do not publicly divulge what friends give to me in secret. Was this right or wrong? Only God knows the answer. Even I don't know, but to see it from my perspective, you must walk in my shoes.
The saddest part of all this is that I am no longer friends with 3 people - 3 close friends that I loved dearly, and part of me always will. I have moved on.
I will not retaliate in any way, nor continue this war further. I laid down my sword against those I love a long time ago, before this battle began. Do I forgive and forget? I forgive all, including myself in most circumstances. I cannot forgive mentioning someone I love very much and accusations of our relationship that I am sure came from bitter anger. But I can forgive that this person was in a bitter place at the time of that statement.
I harbor no hard feelings towards anyone. To me, forgetting means getting on with my life, and that is what I am doing.
There is no war here.
There is no hatred here.
There is only blatant refusal by 3 of us to one of God's greatest gifts. The 4th person involved has not shown bitterness nor dropped any friendship, nor is it in her heart to do so. We 3 will be held accountable for this action, and for allowing negative energies into our lives and the lives of those we love.
This matter is over. I must face my God someday and look at all the good and the bad in my life, as must we all.
Matthew 5:16 'Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in Heaven.'
I continue to strive for the above, but I am, after all, in mortal form, and so it is true that we are Spiritual beings (divine sons and daughters) striving to be mortal.
Psalm 82:6 "I have said, Ye are gods: and all of you are the children of the most high."
Let the bitterness end. The carrying of negative energy is a burden to our souls. Love is light, therefore, never tedious to carry.
I hold no animosity towards anyone. I only continue to walk forward as I feel I must. I will continue to grow and every experience becomes part of that. As Kirk once told Sybok, 'I need my pain. My pain makes me who I am.' It is one of my favorite Star Trek moments, and the clip is below.
To my three lost friends: I will remember only our good times. I will feel the loss of friendship. I will buffer the negativity and hatred thrown at me for it is your right to throw it and my right to not accept it. I see nothing to forgive or forget from any of us; for each step, each word, each thought lives and will live until our reckoning time.
Again, I request you remove the statement against the one person not involved in any of this.
To all my current friends, I ask forgiveness that your spirits and your energies have been pushed into any part of the crumbling of this friendship.
May God fill us all with His light and love so that our lights will shine stronger, and animosity will be put out.
LHR, my dear friends; love, honor, and respect.